"I never told anyone" - a kids story

This is a piece of fiction based on reality....


I am a grot.
I never told anyone that before.
I used to bite my toenails as well as my fingernails and I especially liked chewing them cos they were thicker and lasted longer in my mouth. I didn't want to stop but I did, when I was about 15. Sometimes I still have a nibble.

I am a grot.
I never told anyone that before.
I love the taste of salty snot and chewy phlegm and sometimes I get sad when tehre's no more goobies or boogers to chew. Sometimes I wonder if other people's are differetn flavours. I tried someone elses once - it was a bit sour but I could get used to it.

I am a grot.
I never told anyone that before.
I wonder why it is. I wonder if it's a family thing or a boredom thing. Maybe I got bored and would amuse myself any way I could. I wonder..

I am grot.
I never told anyone that before.

Beautifully Ugly

I went to writing group on Monday night and we did an exercise where you had to think of something really ugly and repulsive and describe it assomething beautiful. See if you can guess what I wrote mine about....

It was a landscape, a textured sunset with mountain peaks like snowtops. It was warmth and cool at the same time. There were rivers of salty, sweet sweat trickling between the glistening peaks - clear as water but not deep enough to be able to see a reflection. Every now and again, the liquid sweat would gather in a crater pool before continuing down to the chin to drip off - sparkling glorious as a dewdrop. The peaks were red rimmed at the base, like sunrise on the horizon, and the tip of each peak was white, juicy, sexy.
Her skin was the most beautiful I had ever seen. A landscape made just for me to explore.
Landscape
Textured sunset
Snowtops
Rivulets
Paradise.
I could have explored her forever.
Then she turned 18.
The landscape changed. It became barren and desert-like. There were no more mountains to trace or rivulets to watch and catch as they gently fell off her pointed chin. The lansscape lost its magic and I grew cold.


"Pretty Pimples, Awesome Acne"

Ring, snot, happiness

ok, I'm a slacker - I just realised I haven't updated this blog for a couple of weeks. Bummer! I didn't expect to have time to do it today, I expected to be at work - but it's funny how things don't always mee my expectations! I gotta laugh. I had these big plans to work all week including a 3-11pm shift on Wednesday at the detox. I was planning on taking Thursday off and then working Friday and then doing this public speaking training course Friday night, all day Saturday, Sunday and then Monday night. But, I'm sick and I have a chest infection and I sound like a B grade tranny who's dying of throat cancer! Well, at least I did yesterday, I'm much better today.
So, I haven't written since the 6th November. On the 7th November I went to a bead shop with Dianna (my friend at work) to choose some beads with her to match her dress that she's wearing to her firneds wedding in Dungog or Dugong oir something like that - it's in outback NSW and she's over there now. Anyway, she spent $60 on crystal and stones and I made the most beautiful necklace I have ever created. It was like a chain of crystal and stone and had a string of crystal hanging right in her cleavage - it was very stunning. I have madea few hundred bucks out of my jewellery just through work now and am still planning on getting it together to do a market - it just hasn't happened yet!
I have done a couple of shifts at the detox now (off induction) where I am the only AOD worker on duty and then there's a caregiver who works alongside me. It's been fantastic. I wasn't sure how I would go cos it seems that I am the only AOD worker there without a Social Work or Psych degree. A couple of people were having a really hard time on Wednesday night when I was working there and I encouraged them to individually come and see me to talk things through. Anyway, basically, they both wanted to leave for different reasons - and after spending half an hour with them, they went off to their room then came back to thank me and said they were feeling much better! It is very rewarding - so long as I only think about it day by day. As long as they are safe for that day - I find it rewarding, I know that if I start placing the rewardingness in long term recovery for a lot of these people I will be disappointed but so long as they are safe for a day - I think that is a major achievemnt considering where they were at before entering detox. Anyway, so far so good. I have always wondered if I would be of any use listening to men and the problems they face but I have listened to a couple of men now and seem to have been able to give them some tips to deal with their anger and frustration and sadness. So - as you can see, things there have worked out so far.
My work at YWCA Future Leaders Programme is also going really well. I have confirmed the calender of events leading up until June next year and its all looking good and coming in under budget which roks! December will be a craft day as well as the Annual Celebration and Awards Ceremony (all parents, mentors, students, YWCA staff and partners are invited). February will be waterfall abseiling, March will be public speaking workshop, April will be an overnight First Aid training camp where all participants will get accredited (just gotta find accomodation) as well as a camp for the 2 most recent school so come onto the programme which will go for 5 days (I'll be going with the girls), May will be Hip Hop Culture day of workshops and speakers and June - I can't remember!!! So, basically, I put the effort into organising all this awesome stuff and then I also get to go along and do it too! So, between the 2 jobs I have been working about 38 hours each week which is totally manageable.
Last weekend on Sunday, it was out 1 year anniversary (Dave and I) and I worked from 7am-3pm because when I got offered the shift I forgot it was our anniversary! I got home at 4 and was exhausted so we watched a vid then got ready and went out for dinner to Prego's - a yummy Italian restraunt I had never been to before. To cut a long story short, Dave propsed to me after the meal and I said yes and he gave me a beautiful ring and things have been really exciting and emotional ever since. And now I'm sick and I think I should really be lying down! I'll be in touch. Love to you all.